Thanksgiving

I had a good Thanksgiving. My parents flew up from Atlanta to visit me. My younger sister lives in Pompano Beach, FL with her fiance and was spending the holiday with his family down there. My parents knew that I didn't have the money to fly home for both T'day and Christmas so they flew up here. So nice of them.

I was bummed though because the main thing I wanted to do was show them around the Village but it was freezing and rainy the two days we could've done that. So we sat around my apartment a lot more than I was anticipating and I had nothing to eat or drink for them (note to self: must be a better hostess).

Luckily, the restaurant we chose for our Turkey feast was WONDERFUL!!! From the beginner cocktails and bread all the way through to dessert and tea was really, really good. I was feeling the pressure because usually we have T'day with all our extended family and tons of great food. I was SO happy this worked out. The parents were beyond satisfied. Yay!

Friday was fun. We went shopping and my dad was his wonderful patient self...sitting on the "man couch" in each store as my mom and I fought off the other bitches trying to get all the good stuff at the "day after Thanksgiving" sales. I emerged with a great dress from H&M and quite a few other things. Woo hoo!

Then we went window shopping at all of the major department stores on 5th Avenue. Bergdorf Goodman's had the BEST windows! They were truly spectacular. My mom and I were just in awe. Then we wandered the city trying to find a good restaurant and stumbed upon a place that's apparently a great classic restaurant ($$$). My dad was great though. Our vacation motto of "Nothing's too good for a Bunch" was in full force. After dinner we saw Martin Short's Broadway show "Fame Becomes Me" and it was actually hilarious. I like Martin Short alright but I'm not a HUGE fan. But I really enjoyed his show. The 4th row seats didn't hurt. Go Dad! He somehow scored those through his Holiday Inn concierge. Haha....

They left today :( Then tonight I went out with my former LA roommate and some other folks. I was hoping for a big night out but they all had to leave before midnight. I was reeeeeeally in the mood to go all out so I texted the dumb Notre Dame guy to see if he was around because he lives about 2 blocks from where we were hanging out. He said he was in Indianapolis for T'day but was sorry he missed me. He better be. Fucker. (For more info on him read the blog entitled "Didn't even take a week")

Today was the day Joe was supposed to come to NY to visit me. It's been tough but I resisted texting him or leaving him a drunk voicemail. I'll talk to him next week because I'm hopefully finding out about the website job. Also, he's finding out on Friday whether his film got into Sundance or not. So I know we'll talk then.

All 3 of you that read this blog...please keep your fingers crossed that I get this job. I interviewed last Tuesday for it and according to the editor I'm supposed to find out "as soon as possible after Thanksgiving" whether or not I got it. Over 250 people applied and they're only hiring 2 people for this position. I know I'm up there in their consideration but have no idea if I actually got it or not.

GOD - I hope I got this job.

I'm so excited it's the holidays!!! The decorations are starting to go up all over the city and they put a huge smile on my face. Christmas is my favorite holiday! And I LOVE that I'm finally in NY and can have a real Christmas for once. Not an LA-it's-75-degrees-and-the-only-trees-are-palm-trees Christmas.

'Tis the season to be jolly.......

So sad...

Toronto Joe and I finally decided to stop pretending that we have a shot at "us" in the immediate future and instead are just going to "keep our doors open to one another."

I've been crying for 2 days straight. Meanwhile, I'm assisting this writer part-time and I'm supposed to care about picking up his socks at some store and what salad dressing he likes.

WHY is it that I FINALLLLLY meet an amazing guy that loves me and I love him and all we're asking for is to be together and it can't happen? FUCK ME!!!

He was going to come to NY to visit me right after Thanksgiving and then we were going to hit Miami because his short film is in the festival there, but he can't do either trip now because of money. He doesn't have any. And neither do I. And even if I get a job that pays a lot I still can't see him in December because he'll be working so much at his freakin' valet job to make money that he can't take time off. Only to see his family the week of Christmas and I'll be seeing mine in Atlanta that week.

I guess it's not the end of the world to know that there's an amazing man out there that cares about me and maybe one day when things get better for him we can try it again. But I'm still so goddamn sad right now. My heart literally hurts right now. I think I'm about to have an anxiety attack. I need meds...

I have an interview tomorrow for a job. If I don't get it I'm going to go down a dangerous bad mental path. It's the ONLY specific job that I've heard about since I moved here that I want. I'm perfectly qualified for the job and have two major "in's" as well so the odds are in my favor. Please let THIS go right this week. I need this....